Stressed

Majorly stressed today. I called in sick to work and was told not to bother coming back until Tuesday at 10am (not my normal starting time) so that they could meet with me. I asked if they were firing me and they said no, but it still doesn't sound very good. Forced vacation is never a good thing. I'm trying to trust God, but it's difficult.

To compound matters, I'm worried that if I do get into the situation of needing a second job, how will I be able to find one that wouldn't mind me quitting in 3 months to go back to school?? That's not exactly a selling point, especially in this economy. Maybe I would be better off trying a temp agency?

Getting fired or cut back for excessive absenteeism isn't a selling point either, especially in a small town. I can't really help being sick though, so I'm not sure what they want me to do about it. I've been working on building up my immune system, and I actually haven't been sick for a couple months now, but when you're sick, you're sick, right? Would they rather I went in and infected their entire office staff?? I feel like I'm in a no-win situation here.

It's really difficult to relax and get well when you're stressed out, you know that? I'm sure I would feel better if I could just get some more rest, but now my mind is going a million miles an hour.

Once school starts, things should be better financially, provided that my financial aid comes through (I still haven't heard from them yet!). In the meanwhile, I'm not entirely sure what to do. I wish they wouldn't have been so indecisive over the phone. The unknown is way more stressful than having a definite situation to deal with.